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Tag Archives: grieving
Two-Percenters/Finn (again)
“…and I know sometimes you cannot even breathe deeply, and the night sky is no home, and you have cried yourself to sleep enough times that you are down to your last two percent…” Finn Butler This week, my sister … Continue reading
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Tagged bereavement, cancer widow, encouragement, faith, gifts of the spirit, gospel, gratitude, grief, grief process, grieving, healing, healing after loss, holidays, hope, love, Matthew 17, mountains, mustard seed, New Testament, recovery, sisters, thanksgiving, widow, widowhood
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Exploding St. Paul
I just found out that St. Paul Hospital is coming down. The implosion is set for 8 a.m. tomorrow. My son wants to drive into Dallas and watch it fall. I’m on the fence. Mark died at St. Paul. … Continue reading
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Tagged cancer widow, demolition, gardens, grace, gratitude, grief, grieving, grieving process, healing, healing after loss, hospital, implosions, life, love, memorials, St. Paul, The Dallas Morning News, writing
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Prayers of the antagonostics
I am scared today God. Slept hard, woke up exhausted, spent, alone. Thank you for the quiet center in this space where you are. I apologize. I am very sorry that it takes a bulldozer, a crane, a trained hostage negotiator, sixteen mules, … Continue reading
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Tagged cancer, cancer widow, gifts of the spirit, God, grief, grieving, grieving process, new life, new normal, prayer, recovery, sorrow, throat cancer, widow, widowhood
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On the empty next
I have no idea how this turned into this and then became this I don’t know what my life will look like in a few short months when the boys head off to college. I don’t remember what it’s like to … Continue reading
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Tagged anger, cancer widow, childhood, graduation, gratitude, grief, grieving, hope, recovery, single parent, solo parent, widow
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Cork, popped
In November 2014, I wrote about the bottle of champagne that was to be opened when Mark was finished with treatments, to celebrate life without cancer. (So much for the power of cheap liquor.) The bottle lurked in the back … Continue reading
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Tagged champagne, grief, grief process, grieving, loss, love, recovery, rituals, spirituality
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Lent by slogans
Easy Does It. The best way for me to screw up Lent is to cram too much into it. First Things First. Last night, I deactivated my Facebook account. No matter how I’ve tried to control how much time I … Continue reading
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Tagged 12 Steps, anniversaries, easter, Easy Does It, God, grief, grieving, hope, Lent, prayer, recovery, renewal, Slogans, spirituality, velvet rut, waiting
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27 January 2015
On January 27, 1964, the State of Texas got a little bit funkier, a whole lot funnier, and infinitely kinder as Mark Allen Daves made his debut in El Paso. Mark’s preferred birthday was small and intimate. He usually wanted … Continue reading
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Tagged birthdays, cancer, cancer widow, celebrations, grief, grieving, grieving process, life and afterlife, love, marriage
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Champagne/real pain
And what to do with this? The champagne that I’d bought to celebrate the end of treatments and Mark’s victory over cancer. Representative of failure, a moment in the grocery store and my sudden, half-assed attempt to rouse his spirits … Continue reading
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Tagged anniversaries, bereavement, big tobacco, cancer, cancer widow, death, friends, gifts of the spirit, gratitude, grief, grieving, healing, i hate cigarettes, laughter, loss, love, marriage, throat cancer, widow, widowhood, writing
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Griefbabies
One week and one day ago, the boys and I lost a very good friend. One of my best friends lost her husband. A car accident took him instantly. Jerry was here, and then he was gone. Not a week … Continue reading
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Tagged bereavement, depression, faith, friends, friendships, gifts of the spirit, gratitude, grief, grief process, grieving, healing, hope, loss, love, marriage, recovery, relationships, widow, widowhood
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How to forgive
If someone loves you and wants to marry you, and wants to read this to you at the wedding . . Let him. Be wowed. Be in awe of your good fortune. Be thankful. Be generous in praise and for … Continue reading
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Tagged cancer widow, death, forgiveness, grief, grief process, grieving, healing, marriage, widowhood
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