Monthly Archives: June 2012

The Anxiety Motor

I have lived with anxiety attacks for almost my whole life. The first one happened when I was about 8-10 years old. The situation, circumstances, the sensations remain so vivid. There was a feeling of being cold, and a feeling … Continue reading

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At Sea

I thought I’d be scrambling to find things to do this week. When I realized that my children would be out of town for six days, and that I would be alone here in this house, I started telling friends … Continue reading

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Waiting Rooms

Mark and I spent so much of the last two years of our lives together in waiting rooms – oncology, otolaryngology, radiology, audiology, chemo labs, clinics, blood labs, admit offices, and emergency rooms – in every major hospital in Dallas, … Continue reading

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Not Thursday

Grief makes for emotions so tangled that they prevent coherency. These emotions are the ones most desperate to be fully realized and acknowledged. This makes for Mental Frustration, with the capital M.F. The situations and feelings that I can’t coherently … Continue reading

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I started writing this about a week ago…

Concentration. Focus. The ability to plan and prioritize, and then carry out tasks. Yeah, not so much. Not these days. On good days, I am a body-in-motion. On bad days, even the simplest tasks feel like hauling cement blocks to … Continue reading

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