Tag Archives: recovery

The fallow to the harrow/Let me cry

I’ve used this face before. It is the careworn defiance face, a self-portrait of the wife of the patient, taken mid-December 2011.  Mark and I had been through hell, and we were so tired. If we’d known how few rivers we … Continue reading

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Pocket Lent: ashes

. This is the truth. Everything is not going to be okay.  Some things will be okay. Some things will not. How will you love yourself, in the meantime, that’s what matters. That’s the lesson. . . .

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White Rock Gospels 5:20

  We all stopped to watch as it tuned up this sunset this luxurious unveiling this moving picture of color six miles past description at the lake on the lake in the lake Some of us even         … Continue reading

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Two-Percenters/Finn (again)

“…and I know sometimes you cannot even breathe deeply, and the night sky is no home, and you have cried yourself to sleep enough times that you are down to your last two percent…” Finn Butler This week, my sister … Continue reading

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All hallows, all saints

In my memory banks, there are two November 7ths that I spent with Mark. Our November 7, 1992 wedding, and the last anniversary we had together, in 2011, the day that Mark almost died. (Landmark anniversaries and new theologies) Trauma … Continue reading

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Prayers of the antagonostics

I am scared today God. Slept hard, woke up exhausted, spent, alone. Thank you for the quiet center in this space where you are. I apologize. I am very sorry that it takes a bulldozer, a crane, a trained hostage negotiator, sixteen mules, … Continue reading

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