Grief wants a word

blue widowAfter a while,
you look over at Grief
and realize it’s the same damn horse
you rode in on.

(This sucks.)

I understand, now.

In equal measure
to the Love that I knew,
I am grieving its loss.

(This sucks.)

I was loved.
And in this
I am redeemed,
and even in the midst of being
this this this this
angry, overfed, sodden, muddled
mess –
(which, by the way, sucks)

I am slowly coming around.

I can believe

Love will come again.



About Vicki Caroline Cheatwood

Writerly. Rebooting. Evolving. Searching for great chicken salad.
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4 Responses to Grief wants a word

  1. You know, it most certainly will. I told someone recently that my life has begun to happen in sequels-Vicki Starts Over Part 5, or something like that. It seems I constantly have to reinvent myself to stay afloat. After the train wreck that was my second marriage, I thought I might never be happy again. Even though it mostly sucked, I grieved for the parts that were good. When my ex died, I grieved for him again. But the important thing is, I got through. And what was on the other side was better than I would have ever imagined. It happens.

  2. GeeGee says:

    Yes. Beautiful.

  3. connie says:

    After my life fell apart — I was boo-hooing to someone and said: ‘This is not how I dreamed my life would be’… which she replied: ‘It’s time to dream a new dream’. It stopped me cold in my tracks. That’s my hope for you dear friend— dream big, new wonderful thoughts and ideas. This is certainly NOT how you saw your life either — but surely new and wonderful things are in your future.

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